There’s something about a blank page that gives me a pause. There are so many possibilities and yet I can’t seem to focus on the one. The one that will make readers want to read what I have to say. The one that will make me want to spend time writing it.
I’m certain that I’m not the only person who faces this problem. In fact, I’d probably find a thousand self-help books about “writer’s block” in just a quick Google search. But that’s not it. It’s not a block per se. Because it’s not that I don’t have any ideas about what to write. It’s that I have so many things swirling around in my head that I can’t focus. More times than not, I end up not writing anything at all. So, “writer’s block” after all?
Today, I got my first rejection letter. It was from a very interesting job opportunity and it made me really sad. Especially since I put a lot of work into the application. I sat in front of that blank page for weeks, too, unable to write anything. What I ended up with made me feel proud of my work and I hoped others would appreciate that. There are, of course, lots of reasons why an application gets rejected. Many applicants with equal or better qualifications… If it’s for a good job, you won’t be the only one who’s interested. It’s not like the whole world rejected me.
… Is it?
Right now, I’m facing a problem – and it’s big. After finishing my Master’s degree in Japanese and English Studies, I find myself open to a world full of new and wonderful opportunities. Another blank page, waiting to be written on. I also find myself overwhelmed. It’s not that I don’t know what I want to do. It’s that I want to do a lot of things. I just can’t decide what I’d love to do. So here I am again. Pausing. Unable to focus.
I know I’m not alone. That knowledge helps, if only a little. But you know what? I was able to conquer this blank page, I will be able to conquer the next!
1 week and 1 day ago, I got a little baby cat. He’s been living with me in my new appartment quite happily, so far. I enjoy having my tiny companion around me, even though he detests me being on any and all eletronical devices. Whenever he sees me using my phone, tablet or laptop, he attacks it with all his might. Luckily, as Watson is still a baby, there’s not a lot of might that he can use to destroy my appliances.
Anyway, I just wanted to update you a little on my life, seeing as I haven’t been updating my blogs in a while.
While you’re at it, enjoy this short video of Watson playing around 😉
I’ve been dealing with a lot of changes and challenges in my life. Some of them were thrust upon me by various events, some of them were a consequence of my own hopes and dreams that demand I take certain steps in certain ways. Accompanying every one of these steps is a nagging feeling, a whisper, a string that holds me back. Worry.
When I came home from a long day at work yesterday evening, I had a wonderful message waiting for me.
Rachel, over at racheltrieslife.com, has nominated me for the One Lovely Blog Award. Thank you so much! You really made my day so, so much better! You all are probably aware of how important it is to get positive feedback on the things that you spend a lot of time thinking about, working on, and sometimes also being frustrated about. Getting such a message and nomination as a blog that is just starting out… that’s amazing. It makes me want to work so much harder on this blog.
I can tell you this: I enjoy reading comic books. And also: this is a very recent development. How did this happen? What started my fascination with American comic heroes?
I remember well how I got into Japanese comics, a.k.a. manga. They were my starting point into fandom.
I was 9 years old and my mother bought me the first volume of Sailor Moon on our way home from school. She never knew what consequences that little act of kindness would have (we had little money, so giving me something without it being my birthday or Christmas was a big deal). In the days and years to come, she would come to regret giving me that little book. She still jokes about it whenever I talk about one of my many fandoms. That one volume started a manga craze, and with it, my addiction to all sorts of media entertainment. Additionally to reading almost every manga that was being published, I watched a lot of anime and some American animation on TV and later online.