Blank pages

There’s something about a blank page that gives me a pause. There are so many possibilities and yet I can’t seem to focus on the one. The one that will make readers want to read what I have to say. The one that will make me want to spend time writing it.

I’m certain that I’m not the only person who faces this problem. In fact, I’d probably find a thousand self-help books about “writer’s block” in just a quick Google search. But that’s not it. It’s not a block per se. Because it’s not that I don’t have any ideas about what to write. It’s that I have so many things swirling around in my head that I can’t focus. More times than not, I end up not writing anything at all. So, “writer’s block” after all?

Today, I got my first rejection letter. It was from a very interesting job opportunity and it made me really sad. Especially since I put a lot of work into the application. I sat in front of that blank page for weeks, too, unable to write anything. What I ended up with made me feel proud of my work and I hoped others would appreciate that. There are, of course, lots of reasons why an application gets rejected. Many applicants with equal or better qualifications… If it’s for a good job, you won’t be the only one who’s interested. It’s not like the whole world rejected me.

… Is it?

Right now, I’m facing a problem – and it’s big. After finishing my Master’s degree in Japanese and English Studies, I find myself open to a world full of new and wonderful opportunities. Another blank page, waiting to be written on. I also find myself overwhelmed. It’s not that I don’t know what I want to do. It’s that I want to do a lot of things. I just can’t decide what I’d love to do. So here I am again. Pausing. Unable to focus.

I know I’m not alone. That knowledge helps, if only a little. But you know what? I was able to conquer this blank page, I will be able to conquer the next!

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Comics Review #8: Adulthood is a Myth – A “Sarah’s Scribbles” Collection by Sarah Andersen

Adulthood is a Myth Cover (source: comixology.com)

Title: Adulthood is a Myth – A “Sarah’s Scribbles” Collection
Written and Illustrated by: Sarah Andersen
Published by: Andrews McMeel
Year: 2016

Adulthood is a Myth is a beautiful collection of comic stips by Sarah Andersen following the life of a young, introversive woman with a deep love for books and her warm, cosy bed. Not autobiographical at all… 😉

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Femme Friday #11: Amanda Palmer

Today I want to share my love for a very inspiring person, feminist, extremely talented singer, artist, and author, Amanda Palmer.

Cover for Amanda Palmer’s book The Art of Asking (source: amandapalmer.net)

I first saw her at a concert of her former band The Dresden Dolls, when I was a teenager. I lost track of her until I found out that she is married to the equally wonderful and talented Neil Gaiman who some of you may know as the author of American Gods and the Sandman comic books, for example. My love for Amanda Palmer was rekindled. I started to listen to her solo music, read her poems and follow her on Twitter. There’s a wonderful App which allows you to read her blog, listen to her music, and get in touch with her. Make sure to check it out.

Amanda Palmer’s book The Art of Asking was published in 2015. The idea originated in Palmer’s TED talk which is really worth watching. You will surely learn a thing or two. You can watch the talk here.

If you’re interested in her work, and found her speech as inspiring as I did, go and buy her book to learn more.

Comics Review #6: The Story of My Tits by Jennifer Hayden

The Story of My Tits Cover (source: comixology.com)

Title: The Story of My Tits
Written and Illustrated by: Jennifer Hayden
Publisher: Top Shelf
Year: 2015

In The Story of My Tits Jennifer Hayden takes the reader on a journey through the complicated and sometimes painful coming-of-age story of a young girl, the women in her life, and their battle with cancer. This graphic novel is based on Hayden’s life and her experiences with growing up, love, sex, but also illness and death.

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